Saturday, March 31, 2007

hahaha if you've seen the local flim Just Follow Law, you'd know what i'm talking about. check this out! http://laozhabor.blogspot.com/
LOL.

I’ve been living with a shadow, over head
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud, above my bed
I’ve been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on

I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just in case I ever need them again someday
I’ve been setting aside time
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make through without a way back into love
I’ve been watching
but the stars refuse to shine
I’ve been searching
but I just don’t see the signs
I know that it’s out there
there’s gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
and I’m open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart againI guess I’m hoping that you’ll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real
or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can’t make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do
and if you’ll help me to start again
you know that I’ll be there for you in the end

=)

take me with you
5:06 PM

Friday, March 30, 2007

ahhhhh i've a make-up lecture tomorrow so i'm stuck on nanyang island again. AND i've another make-up on saturday next week which is the day after good friday! wth right... i'd rather not have good friday! rahhhh.

on a side note, met my prof just now and realized he is really trying to help us just that he has problem expressing himself and errr yes, i've problem trying to figure out what he's talking about half the time, literally, because he's from errrr... china. hahaha! he has so many calculus textbooks in chinese! can you imagine that! gosh. anyway there was this seiyu sales in school since wednesday! and so... did shopping! hehheh=) oh yes went to this jap restaurant inside jurong stadium(?) after school yesterday with my coursemates... tsk. sakae's relatively better. haha.

ah heard there's late night shopping now in town. i want! rahhh but exams are coming so.. sigh. it's all about mugging now. booo.

sometimes i wonder why some people prefer to "communicate" (i don't even think it's communicating but well, some insist) via msn subnicks instead of just facing the damn problem and clarify/reason/question the other parties involved directly. because at the end of the day, using such "device" to communicate doesn't address the root of the problem. instead it's all about assumptions and more assumptions. so much so that it has come to a point where i just wanna fuck care and move on. i don't even wanna waste time and effort explaining in hope of salvaging whatever that's left. and it's not because i don't want to but because i don't see any point in doing so. i mean, what i'll get are msn-subnicks replies. i might as well talk to my bolster because its justifiable that it doesn't respond. hah!

righty i'm off. am so exhausted but there's so many things to be done. yawn~

take me with you
6:10 PM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

i don't know the intentions neither do i care.
i just find it self-absorbed and to put it bluntly, childish.
there really isn't a need to do such things, is there?

take me with you
10:27 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

No amount of apologies, reproaches or whatever can ratify the current situation now. I wouldn’t blame you if resentment is building up against me. All along it has been my fault. But please trust me, I really did try. I really did appreciate everything you’ve done for me and yes everything you’ve done did touch me. But admittedly, I wasn’t in love. Love is about being honest with yourself and the others. Sadly, I committed this crucial mistake right from the very start. I know there’s nothing else I can possibly do to alleviate all the hurt I’ve inflicted on you unintentionally. Trust me, you weren’t a toy. All these shit that has happened, I’m really sorry. I just hope time will heal everything. If hating me helps, then go ahead. I’ll just have myself to blame for putting you through this, for losing not only a wonderful lover but a great friend as well. If by any chance you’re reading this, please do take care. And I really hope things will get better for you soon…

take me with you
1:09 AM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

i thought i could keep things under control.
i thought i could just brush it aside in time to come.
i thought i would learn to do it eventually.
i've been trying, really.
i thought that was the end, i mean, it has to be.
but i thought wrong.
i know it's all unsound and mishandled, that was why i wanted to let it go just like that.
i've come to picture it, that we can't do things like how we used to when we were younger.
sometimes in life, we can no longer afford to do things that we want but rather, the correct things which we ought to do.

because of my indecisiveness, my implusiveness and my bluntness, i've hurt so many people in just 2 sems.
i admit it's all my fault, but what's the use?
things are how it is now.
there's no reverse, no explicit solutions.
just more confusion, more musings, more regrets, more frustrations, more IFs, more WHYs, more unanswered questions.

we don't always make the right decisions, and sometimes we act out of our impulse.
we can only hope to learn from our experiences and do better next time.
the right things at the wrong time would just be wrong after all.

i really hope things would get better.
for everyone.
it has to.

take me with you
12:46 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

rahhhh i'm supposed to be home now but there's mid term test tomorrow followed by a make-up lecture! why are the profs here so annoying =( it doesn't take a person with a phd to say things like "it's implicit because it isn't explicit" and "the graph here is simple because it isn't complicated" -_-!!

okok back to studying! save me!

sorry that i snapped at you today :(

take me with you
9:29 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

take me with you
9:19 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something: they're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is: "if you see your relationship as a place that you're willing to give all your best, and not a place that you must take".

Love is...
being honest with youself at all times
being honest with the other person at all times
telling, listening, respecting the truth
and never pretending.
Love is the source of reality.

take me with you
10:27 PM

Monday, March 19, 2007

take me with you
1:19 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

rahhhhhh i typed out a long entry but blogger had to die on me. can't remember the exact things i've written so here's a brief one.

the anticipated weekend's here again yet i've to stay in hall because of the power ranger shows later and tomorrow afternoon. boooo. it isn't a bad job because the kids are really soooo adorable! thankfully it's just 2 more days left. kinda time-consuming. haha.

attended jasper's OCS commissioning ball yesterday. it was a mixture of feelings - touched, happy and a tinge of sadness. it's amazing how time flies and where we're standing today as who we're. the old times like those spent in jc and sec school seem so far away now.

ah yes second attempt to donate blood was a nightmare. it'll take me at least a year to get over it. hahaha.

it's funny how life works around and how unpredictable it gets.
i'm really fortunate to have someone like you in my life.
someone whom i know would always be there for me.
someone whom i can trust.
someone who was the uncanny ability to make me smile no matter how terrible my day has been.
someone who really cares.
and yes you're that special someone.
thanks for every lil thing that you've done for me.

take me with you
3:10 PM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

was literally squashed to ashes at suntec yesterday. IT show only what.... hahahaha. okay okay i'm so glad i got the full amount for the survey job. they were really lenient. am finally able to return my parents the canvassing fee they paid for me in advance. i dont use their money to pay for the canvassing fee which i'm supposed to pay okay! haha.

oh yes yes guess what?! yours truly will be working as a superhero for a week! muhahaha. it's some on stage performance at jurong point next week from monday to sunday. gna dressed up as power ranger (pink i reckon) hahaha ohmygod. the thought of it is hilarious! imagine xiao vincent and yaoliang in the not-so-tight-but-still-tight-nonetheless costume too. LOL. i'm keeping my fingers crossed that we wouldn't have to act out anything. although i was a big fan of power rangers during my primary school days, i seriously don't remember anything about it now. hopefully i don't die laughing tomorrow. hahaha.

ah yes caught Rain's new movie yesterday with adebao. finally met her! talked until i got so dehydrated and as though i was losing my voice. hahaha. the movie was rather disappointing but Rain's irresistably cute! like what's new huh. hahaha! bumped into angela, yuanfang and their friend. heh heh. angela got hysterical when i told her jason vega was there too.

gna rush off to get my tutorials done.

my honey sweet saccharine :)

take me with you
11:32 AM

Thursday, March 08, 2007

守在你身边看你每一个笑脸
笑得那么甜是他给了你誓言

不敢有埋怨都是我心甘情愿
或许有一天我的爱你能看见

一天一点你渐渐走远
我却像空气被忽略

只怪我的爱不够勇敢
一直沉默的作你的依赖
让一切石沉大海
baby now i need you by my side
过去的一切该怎么放开
without you i can't fall in love again
without you i can't
oh baby i can't fall in love again

till the end of time in a world so close to me
i'm just so in love with a girl who's in my heart

each and everyday i wanna have you next to me
and i say to the world i'll never let it end

明明知道直到有一天发现
你不再有笑脸

take me with you
3:23 PM

Monday, March 05, 2007

gosh i'm soooo tired! arghh. there's calculus midterm tomorrow and i'm so gna screw it. sighhh. linear algebra on friday and BASIC (but to me it's like advanced^infinity) number theory two weeks later. rahhhh. and exams are nearing in slightly more than a month's time. i want my holidays! boo.

gna have k clan steamboat and bread&milk delivery later and so there goes my studying time. on wednesday there's this blk42 & 43 hall supper cum senior farewell party and on thursday it's inter-hall appreciation dinner. thank goodness kerry's letting me off on thursday else i'll just drink dettol for friday's paper. boo.

like i was telling gloria earlier on, the professors here are doctors right... so i'm the intensive-care unit patient. booooooo~

oh yeah heard mj did pretty well this year, definitely better than last year. it's pretty amazing for a 5year old school. ahh i so miss school, the squash trainings, scas help-outs and all.

sighh needa get back to studying soon.

thanks for being there =)

take me with you
4:24 PM

Friday, March 02, 2007

haha i read this somewhere. found it quite interesting.

每个女孩都是天使，
当她流下第一滴眼泪时，
上帝就会收回她的翅膀，
所以，希望世间的男孩都能知道，
当你眼前的女孩，
为你流下第一滴泪时，
她已经为了你，
而放弃了整个天堂。

read this
http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/viewPost2068.aspx
hahaha! shall not expose that person who's full of shiet else he might not be able to go on exchange. but its freaking funny! lol.

take me with you
7:47 PM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

that similar fear which i thought i'd gotten over.
something which i thought was senseless and redundant.
but why still?
if only i were braver.

take me with you
10:34 PM